thoughts
Inclination there, time lacking
11/08/08 21:34
I fancy being a daily blogger. I spend much of each day filing bits in my brain for later release when I get to the computer. Somehow that time doesn't come. It seems something else has to wait for me to have this time, that isn't normally something that can wait.
This week I'm a mummy to one. The girls are away at MoTB. We dropped them off yesterday, excited and they pushed us down the drive after about an hour as it was time for them to have fun! Felt odd as always but also I'm jealous- that place is really cool! We followed Bob back to the campsite to see Joyce- so good to see after far too long! They have the most adorable dog in Maisie. I didn't think I'd like her much ( pre-concieved ideas about poodles!) but I was so wrong, poodles are lovely and don't feel at all as I imagined.
I'm looking forward to my time with Buzz and being able to have a bit of time for myself. My batteries really need charging and I'm obviously run down as I'm still coughing after 5.5 weeks. For someone who never normally gets the slightest cold I'm going potty with myself coughing and coughing. A huge downside of the girls being away is that I've promised to take Buzz to Legoland on Wednesday. What was I thinking?
So in this time alone with Buzz I've been doing some thinking about him and where he is in his little world. He's a pretty cool kid actually and one I'd like to be mates with. He's too easily led for my liking and would probably be the class clown if he were in school. Like his eldest sister he likes to entertain and amuse. He's naturally bright without being full on about he. he gets most things quickly and in an unassuming way. His reading is brilliant but he hates reading to me so we do very little of this, but today he was reading The Times to me as I was driving along. He's not 100% perfect but pretty damn impressive. Shame I can't take the credit again
He's number crazy. He sees patterns in them every where and is always working things out in his head and suggesting things to me that I wouldn't even think about. At the moment he's going through a times table phase, a few weeks ago it was time and wore his watch obsessively (quoting the time almost every 2 minutes!).
His drawings are cool, very intricate. Never copied and rarely of a film or TV character. Last week he draw about 100 drawings of camping, different people camping from different periods in time and all that they might need. He likes drawing our home and garden with him playing with his friends or toys. Today he has made paper airplanes with notes for me written on them. He's cute.
I have taken a break from sewing and have been knitting some hats for friends. Knitting really gives me problems with my fingers though which makes me worry about developing arthritis like my mum who can no longer knit.
Exciting news today is that we'll exchange on The Dream House on the 29th!!!! I can't begin to say how amazing this feels to finally have a date, to be able to know that no more crap will get on way! Watch this space for me moaning about all this shit that will come with owning an old house with everything needing doing on it! Please feel free to remind me of my fight to get it!
So it seems I'll be even further down the lack of time path in the coming months.
This week I'm a mummy to one. The girls are away at MoTB. We dropped them off yesterday, excited and they pushed us down the drive after about an hour as it was time for them to have fun! Felt odd as always but also I'm jealous- that place is really cool! We followed Bob back to the campsite to see Joyce- so good to see after far too long! They have the most adorable dog in Maisie. I didn't think I'd like her much ( pre-concieved ideas about poodles!) but I was so wrong, poodles are lovely and don't feel at all as I imagined.
I'm looking forward to my time with Buzz and being able to have a bit of time for myself. My batteries really need charging and I'm obviously run down as I'm still coughing after 5.5 weeks. For someone who never normally gets the slightest cold I'm going potty with myself coughing and coughing. A huge downside of the girls being away is that I've promised to take Buzz to Legoland on Wednesday. What was I thinking?
So in this time alone with Buzz I've been doing some thinking about him and where he is in his little world. He's a pretty cool kid actually and one I'd like to be mates with. He's too easily led for my liking and would probably be the class clown if he were in school. Like his eldest sister he likes to entertain and amuse. He's naturally bright without being full on about he. he gets most things quickly and in an unassuming way. His reading is brilliant but he hates reading to me so we do very little of this, but today he was reading The Times to me as I was driving along. He's not 100% perfect but pretty damn impressive. Shame I can't take the credit again
He's number crazy. He sees patterns in them every where and is always working things out in his head and suggesting things to me that I wouldn't even think about. At the moment he's going through a times table phase, a few weeks ago it was time and wore his watch obsessively (quoting the time almost every 2 minutes!).
His drawings are cool, very intricate. Never copied and rarely of a film or TV character. Last week he draw about 100 drawings of camping, different people camping from different periods in time and all that they might need. He likes drawing our home and garden with him playing with his friends or toys. Today he has made paper airplanes with notes for me written on them. He's cute.
I have taken a break from sewing and have been knitting some hats for friends. Knitting really gives me problems with my fingers though which makes me worry about developing arthritis like my mum who can no longer knit.
Exciting news today is that we'll exchange on The Dream House on the 29th!!!! I can't begin to say how amazing this feels to finally have a date, to be able to know that no more crap will get on way! Watch this space for me moaning about all this shit that will come with owning an old house with everything needing doing on it! Please feel free to remind me of my fight to get it!
So it seems I'll be even further down the lack of time path in the coming months.
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On the up side
24/03/08 22:52
Well I think about school, decide it's going to happen, tell the girls and then spend the next week meeting every reason why they shouldn't go including more conversations with strangers about how wonderful I am for doing it then I care to think about More thought of course to follow.
HE life is going good. I'm firmly in the camp of HE is just life continued until secondary school age (or there about). I do firmly believe that formal work needs to happen at this age. So this is what Pea and Boo have been doing. Only 3/4 mornings each week for a couple of hours. We're enjoying it, it's nice and the results are to be proud of. We're recovering lots of math to keep their confidence up until our new Singapore books arrive, we have some lovely new Schofield and Sims english books which are really good and they all (Buzz included) like doing these. Buzz is grasping early spelling and Pea has started a dyslexic program to help with hers. All three are writing out a poem and illustrating it each day to work on their handwriting. She was disgusted at herself to see Luke had better writing than her!
Tony has taken the piano lessons on board which is making one happy, I can't bring myself to find new tutors yet. Boo wants to do her next grade so we'll have to soon.
As part of getting the girls to work as a team they are creating little booklets on something of their choosing. As we are doing things to do with Italy through March they did a fabulous on The Leaning Tower of Pisa. I was really impressed.
The biggest change in our lives in swimming. It's a world known fact that I hate swimming. Well I hate fat even more so have taken up swimming 3 times a week in an effort to rid my brand new tire from my body. It's still there but I'm rather enjoying our time at the pool. It's at the gym so I can fool myself into thinking it's not full of stuff from peoples bodies LOL! The kids are loving it and the girls are really getting into their lengths again. They are both great swimmers but have no interest in competitions so when they passed their life saving their lessons ended. It's nice for them to get to do something they really enjoy. The benefit has reached Buzz's lessons also and he has been moved from widths to lengths. He is so proud of himself and like the girls has a beautiful stroke.
I have been making time for myself each day doing something I enjoy. I have just finished a bag for a present for Boo's friend. I love making things and this has been something I've really enjoyed. It took a long time!
We've had a lovely weekend this Easter. Tony took most of it off work and we have done just about nothing! It's been great staying in bed until nearly lunch time, lazing about playing computer games, sewing and letting the kids have the neighbours children here nearly all the time. We took them to Brighton on Saturday for dinner at the Mongolian BBQ, they just loved it and made themselves some really interesting dinners! Today we swapped Buzz for Summer and they all played then we all swam.
Buzz is being 7 and upping his questions, we must be at about 3000 a day. It's exhausting and highly amusing. I remember the girls going through this sponge stage. I love how most of the questions are things that I have no idea about, such as can ducks smell (yes they can btw). We all think these strange things so why do we stop asking?
Boo has applied to JA's again. I don't think her legs are long enough still, which is what it would seem they are still looking for, though her chances seem higher for White Lodge next year going by this years in take (obviously based on body!). It's a tough business and one that I'm not 100% sure of but she's talented so I can't stop her. She has also applied at a couple of agents for acting work.
So life is it's usual busy mad self but we are doing well, the children are happy and our days are full and fun.
More thought of course to follow.HE life is going good. I'm firmly in the camp of HE is just life continued until secondary school age (or there about). I do firmly believe that formal work needs to happen at this age. So this is what Pea and Boo have been doing. Only 3/4 mornings each week for a couple of hours. We're enjoying it, it's nice and the results are to be proud of. We're recovering lots of math to keep their confidence up until our new Singapore books arrive, we have some lovely new Schofield and Sims english books which are really good and they all (Buzz included) like doing these. Buzz is grasping early spelling and Pea has started a dyslexic program to help with hers. All three are writing out a poem and illustrating it each day to work on their handwriting. She was disgusted at herself to see Luke had better writing than her!
Tony has taken the piano lessons on board which is making one happy, I can't bring myself to find new tutors yet. Boo wants to do her next grade so we'll have to soon.
As part of getting the girls to work as a team they are creating little booklets on something of their choosing. As we are doing things to do with Italy through March they did a fabulous on The Leaning Tower of Pisa. I was really impressed.
The biggest change in our lives in swimming. It's a world known fact that I hate swimming. Well I hate fat even more so have taken up swimming 3 times a week in an effort to rid my brand new tire from my body. It's still there but I'm rather enjoying our time at the pool. It's at the gym so I can fool myself into thinking it's not full of stuff from peoples bodies LOL! The kids are loving it and the girls are really getting into their lengths again. They are both great swimmers but have no interest in competitions so when they passed their life saving their lessons ended. It's nice for them to get to do something they really enjoy. The benefit has reached Buzz's lessons also and he has been moved from widths to lengths. He is so proud of himself and like the girls has a beautiful stroke.
I have been making time for myself each day doing something I enjoy. I have just finished a bag for a present for Boo's friend. I love making things and this has been something I've really enjoyed. It took a long time!
We've had a lovely weekend this Easter. Tony took most of it off work and we have done just about nothing! It's been great staying in bed until nearly lunch time, lazing about playing computer games, sewing and letting the kids have the neighbours children here nearly all the time. We took them to Brighton on Saturday for dinner at the Mongolian BBQ, they just loved it and made themselves some really interesting dinners! Today we swapped Buzz for Summer and they all played then we all swam.
Buzz is being 7 and upping his questions, we must be at about 3000 a day. It's exhausting and highly amusing. I remember the girls going through this sponge stage. I love how most of the questions are things that I have no idea about, such as can ducks smell (yes they can btw). We all think these strange things so why do we stop asking?
Boo has applied to JA's again. I don't think her legs are long enough still, which is what it would seem they are still looking for, though her chances seem higher for White Lodge next year going by this years in take (obviously based on body!). It's a tough business and one that I'm not 100% sure of but she's talented so I can't stop her. She has also applied at a couple of agents for acting work.
So life is it's usual busy mad self but we are doing well, the children are happy and our days are full and fun.
Thoughts
08/12/07 22:24
Why is it that the things I love in life seem to get forgotten? I love to blog and pour my thoughts and feelings down onto the page. but alas again it's been a month! Also why don't I blog in my whole, why do I feel the need to hold back?
Anyway rambles aside, okay who am I kidding they'll be back in just a few seconds. How are we and where are we at? The Screams are doing great. A strange thing has been taking place these past few weeks, something I'd heard tell about before but secretly believed to be folk lore, something made up by home ed parents to calm their own worried brows. Pea has been self educating, I don't just mean asking questions and engaging me in long conversations about things such as why is the sky blue and snot green. She been researching and writing!! She likes our current house so looked it up on the net and discovered it's Edwardian, she know has a book filled with stuff about the Edwardians.
She's also writing a book! This is the girl who until 2 months ago took almost a year to read one book. Now she's writing her own. She's also got her head buried in one book or another most of the time. Where is my daughter and who is this imposter?
Boo is tired. all the time she sucks her thumb and twirls her hair into a unicorn horn. She's so busy, up with the sun doing and sorting, dancing here and dancing there. It's in her blood, which each pump of her heart a step seems to follow. She lives and breathes to dance. If I can't find her I know she'll be in her room, face to the computer watching You Tube and a ballet on there or a tutorial on the perfect pas de bras.
Music fills the house, piano, sax, violin, wonderful unstructured sounds filling the house with a love and a passion borne from their daddy. I look and I listen and I'm proud.
Buzz, my darling Buzz. He sucks his thumb and snuggles my neck, I press my nose into his hair and smell his delicous scent. He's my baby, yet here he is at 6. grown, tall and lean yet so very strong. For pleasure he does push ups and sit ups, 'look at me' he cries from the floor. He follows Boo's dance, he stands behind her and copies her steps. He has the shadow of passion she has, he'll take lessons next year but already society laughs at his wishes. But what about football...what about it, he can do that too if he wants to when he is older, when he has a chance of a match.
The Screams are my day, I pour my heart and soul into their lives, they make me smile with their quick humour and free living. They have no need to please others, they please themselves.
Me. What about me? I don't worry about them in other peoples eyes anymore, to me they are just them, the good days and bad, the smiles and the cries. Each day I feel I am becoming more me, the person I am meant to be. I will always be mummy, I will always be here to wipe a tear, to clap and cheer, to love and support but I will also be me.
As a family we ride a rocky path, we are human and we are real. It's not always perfect, we are all strong and passionate, we share and we clash. I love it, we love it, we love each other.
Anyway rambles aside, okay who am I kidding they'll be back in just a few seconds. How are we and where are we at? The Screams are doing great. A strange thing has been taking place these past few weeks, something I'd heard tell about before but secretly believed to be folk lore, something made up by home ed parents to calm their own worried brows. Pea has been self educating, I don't just mean asking questions and engaging me in long conversations about things such as why is the sky blue and snot green. She been researching and writing!! She likes our current house so looked it up on the net and discovered it's Edwardian, she know has a book filled with stuff about the Edwardians.
She's also writing a book! This is the girl who until 2 months ago took almost a year to read one book. Now she's writing her own. She's also got her head buried in one book or another most of the time. Where is my daughter and who is this imposter?
Boo is tired. all the time she sucks her thumb and twirls her hair into a unicorn horn. She's so busy, up with the sun doing and sorting, dancing here and dancing there. It's in her blood, which each pump of her heart a step seems to follow. She lives and breathes to dance. If I can't find her I know she'll be in her room, face to the computer watching You Tube and a ballet on there or a tutorial on the perfect pas de bras.
Music fills the house, piano, sax, violin, wonderful unstructured sounds filling the house with a love and a passion borne from their daddy. I look and I listen and I'm proud.
Buzz, my darling Buzz. He sucks his thumb and snuggles my neck, I press my nose into his hair and smell his delicous scent. He's my baby, yet here he is at 6. grown, tall and lean yet so very strong. For pleasure he does push ups and sit ups, 'look at me' he cries from the floor. He follows Boo's dance, he stands behind her and copies her steps. He has the shadow of passion she has, he'll take lessons next year but already society laughs at his wishes. But what about football...what about it, he can do that too if he wants to when he is older, when he has a chance of a match.
The Screams are my day, I pour my heart and soul into their lives, they make me smile with their quick humour and free living. They have no need to please others, they please themselves.
Me. What about me? I don't worry about them in other peoples eyes anymore, to me they are just them, the good days and bad, the smiles and the cries. Each day I feel I am becoming more me, the person I am meant to be. I will always be mummy, I will always be here to wipe a tear, to clap and cheer, to love and support but I will also be me.
As a family we ride a rocky path, we are human and we are real. It's not always perfect, we are all strong and passionate, we share and we clash. I love it, we love it, we love each other.
